Wednesday, February 26, 2020

What does it mean to fast? (J.-M. Le Clézio)


In the short story Hazaran by Nobel Prize-winning author J.-M. Le Clézio, the young girl named Alia and her elderly friend Martin are neighbors in a French bidonville or shanty town whose population is quite poor.  Martin is a bit of a mystery to Alia…

Alia grew thoughtful.
What does that mean, fast?  She added, Is it like traveling?
            But Martin laughed.  What a strange idea!  No, fasting is when you don’t want to eat.
            How could anyone not want to eat, thought Alia.  Nobody had ever said anything so strange to her.  In spite of herself, she also thought about all the children in the Dike who spent their days looking for something to eat, even the ones who weren’t hungry.  She thought about the ones who went to steal from the supermarkets near the airport, and the ones who went to pilfer fruit and eggs from neighboring gardens.
            Martin answered right away, as if he had heard what Alia was thinking.
            Have you ever been very thirsty?
            Yes, said Alia.
            And when you were thirsty, did you want to eat?
            She shook her head.
            You didn’t, did you?  You just wanted to drink, you were so thirsty.  You felt like you could have drunk all the water at the pump, and if somebody had given you a huge plate of food at that point, you would have refused because it was water you needed.
            Martin stopped talking for a moment.  He smiled.
            And the same goes for when you were very hungry.  You wouldn’t have wanted someone to give you a jug of water.  You would have said, no, not now, I want to eat first, eat as much as I can, and then afterward, if there’s room, I’ll drink some water.
            But you don’t eat or drink! exclaimed Alia.
            That’s what I wanted to tell you, Little Moon, said Martin.  When you fast, you don’t feel like having food or water, because what you feel like is something else, and it is more important than eating or drinking.
            And what is it you feel like having then? asked Alia.
            God, said Martin.

J.-M. Le Clézio, 
Hazaran, a short story 
in the collection Mondo and Other Stories


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